You took my smile away from me
Although you had promised me you would make me as happy as can be
You took my thoughts, and twisted my dreams
Even though you had said that we would be working as a team
You took my friends, one by one
I had stupidly believed you when you said nothing would come undone
You took my honesty, made me lie everyday
As you didn’t mention the price I’d have to pay
You took my family, making them worried and confused,
You had failed to mention everything I would have to lose
You took my life, replacing it with yours
Controlling every movement, creating all these laws
You took my body, starved it of the world
You made me nothing to myself, as my life became to unfurl
Then when I realised you were no friend to me,
I had already fallen too far, and you had lost the key.
You had trick me with your deceiving words, you lied and lied to my face
Do you not feel guilty, regretful; do you even admit you’ve lost the race?
For you’ve wreck my life and I just want to let you know
I am not listening anymore so you are more than welcome to go.


I wrote this poem a few months ago struggling to find the strength to overcome anorexia nervosa. It helped me come to terms with everything my eating disorder had made me lose and taken from me, and also all the things I could get back if I could only find the courage to fight.